You Are Beautiful

Sometimes life can throw a curve ball your way, which can be very hard to see the next step. It doesn’t matter where you start out; it’s where you end up in life that truly matters most. Whatever you have endured, no matter how much pain you have carried, there is hope. There are tests that come to challenge you, to teach, inspire, and enlighten you.

As I struggled through the years of hurt, pain, the betrayal and trauma, I will never forget the days. I vented, cried and wallowed into the wee hours of the night. The pain was so excruciating at times, that I didn’t even care who knew my business. I found someone to tell little by little of what I was going through. Somehow, I started to feel relieved as I felt a glimmer of hope, but then there were times, when I felt completely like a fool for revealing the truth of what my life was like behind the mask. There was no one in whom I felt that I could trust with the fear of being embarrassed, ashamed, or rejected by others. I’ll tell you it was a miserable and lonely place to be.

I was shaped by the unfortunate circumstances of my childhood as it followed me into my adult life. I was surrounded by dysfunctional parent’s that suffered from alcohol, drug use, violence, and poverty. However, I was able to see the cause and effect that it had on their lives at an early age. As I learned to cope by escaping mentally through dreaming of being an actress, song writer, an author, my life journey down a path that has taken me on an emotional roller coaster. Then, I fell in love and married my high school sweet heart. As the cords of deception, alcohol, infidelity, manipulation and domestic abuse unraveled, I hit rock bottom.

I fought mentally, spiritually, physically and emotionally to regain the strength to live again. Today, am wiser, stronger, and living in the light! I am no longer in bondage, or held back from the obstacles of the past. I am living on purpose and my wings are certainly moving graciously as I envision the sun shining every day on my life. It feels marvelous to sing, smile and embrace laughter! I am free to be who I’m destined to be my true self – beautiful. I attribute my gratitude and new life to God for hearing my prayers.

Please keep believing in yourself and never give up! There’s purpose in all that you go through, it’s not in vain, learn the lesson and pass the test. Until next time, remember that there is something beautiful about you as you embrace your journey.